My Space

Jean Grey ruins again

So I watched SpiderMan Brand New Day yesterday and I must say it was dissapointing. While the start and everything was great and I loved it, when I learned who the ,,villain,, is it kinda landed flat for me. I was super excited for this movie and I was looking forward to it and with the introduction of the Jean Grey, it was like it deflated. This character already ruined an existing movie for me not just once but twice. If it wasn't the centre of it, I think it could have been great, but why they continue to make it the centre is beyond me. There is so many other amazing character that could have been there instead. No it have to be Jean Grey. Couln't you left her in the xmen. Wasn't enough that movie was ruined years ago ? -_-

Learning new/old things.

I decided to set some long term goals for myself. Is never too late to learn new things and start again and that is what I am planning to do. I know HTML and CSS, but I recently realized that my knowledge is a bit outdated, and that is one of the reason I am relearning HTML, CSS, plus I want to properly learn the JAVACSRIPT and RUBY. Who knows what will be and knowledge is power. Maybe I could land a new job when I learn properly how to code. This page, I really wanted to make it, but there is many coding mistakes and things that probably shouldn't be done and that is because I am not a professional. I learned things years ago and forgot some and I want to do better and be better. And this page needs better and cleaner code and I also want new design. This whole things was like a experiment for me, which partialy was succesfull and partially maybe wasn't. Wish me luck.

Very little time, but maybe it's better like this.

I fell into canvas size 18x18px. It's kind of fun but at the same time challenging to work with such a tiny canvas. But also it doesn't need much, for the art to look good. I made lot of badges and have even more ideas for new ones. I do wonder if the vgen will be for someting or it will just lie for death like my kofi. I feel like there is too much of everything and if one does not make videos or stream, then there is a very little possibility to have regular commissions or sales. I still haven't started on the regular videos. I don't have that much time for it, and I am not sure if it's a good invested time. I definitely cannot stream, no matter how much I want, because my old PC just cannot handle it.

What is this feeling ?

Today I woke up with approaching sense of doom. Fist I felt stressed, then depressed. All just because of finances, sadly. I really wish I could just create and create, and never care about money. This whole existence being tied to money is tiring. I doubt that was the original purpose for being here, just to stress and suffer and run after money. I am pretty sure the purpose is way higher than this. I sincerely hope things change soon. It's getting unberable.

HOZY

I downloaded the Hozy game and I really like it, but my computer is just too old for any new games. I had to turn of a lot of things for it to not lag and it did not lag, but my pc was struggling. It was so noisy that I was afraid it will stop working. So probably I had to save money for new computer, but it will be very hard in current situation. But we will see.

S E L F - P O R T R A I T

Today, I tried, for the first time, self-portrait just from pixel art. It looks how it looks, but I tried really hard with the shading and all, but I am just not good at drawing any type of people. I am not even sure if I enjoyed it. If you ask why is the picture from that angle, well I happend to have photo just like that from an angle and I liked it, so I did this self-portrait. I don't even look like this but whatever. Maybe when I feel like it I will try it one more time with different photo.